Soon

Soon I will blog about something other than this pregnancy, I promise. I just need a little good mojo, tonight, ladies.

I debated whether or not to blog about this or not. You know how sometimes things don't seem real until you voice them? For me, once I write it down it's given life, so I am very careful what I write about. I stopped keeping a journal a long time ago.

I am almost 8 weeks pregnant. I am bleeding. Not a lot, mind, just a spot here and there, a larger spot here and there. I am not cramping. I am not passing tissue. But I am not stopping, either. It's been going on since Monday afternoon. My first call to the nurse earned me a reassuring "not to worry, very common". My second call got me scheduled for an ultrasound. I don't know if that was because they were more worried, or if they simply wanted to stop me before I started calling daily. Either way, I go tomorrow at 2 PM to find out what the situation is. Hopefully I am far enough in for them to detect a heartbeat. I have been driving myself insane for days going back and forth between thinking "meh, it's fine" and "oh, my, god, it took me five months to get pregnant and now it's over before it starts". I really need to have an answer, no matter what it may be.

I dreamed last night that my niece belonged to me, and that I was putting her to bed in the room with Kayleigh. I don't know if that's my psyche's wishful thinking, or a sign of what's to be.So, good mojo for me tonight, if you don't mind. I will post this weekend and let you know what the situation is, either way.