Saturday, November 1, 2008

Okay, now I get it about the cramping. I never had that with the other two losses, but I sure as hell do now. In a way, I am almost grateful. At least if it is going to be definitive, I don't have to wait until Thursday to get told that it is definitive. I can go ahead and grieve, and figure out what to do next. I only wish tomorrow was not the Kraken's 4th birthday party - that has the potential to get complicated.

I told a friend earlier this evening that I wonder now how many tragedies my own parents hid from my eyes when I was a child. The Kraken is blissfully oblivious as she races around the house with her cousin, no idea that the sister or brother she wanted is quietly ebbing away.

6 comments:

Phantom Scribbler said...

Thinking of you. I hope you've got plenty of people helping you out tomorrow.

bon said...

So sorry.

I truly hope that the Kraken has a lovely birthday today, and I hope that you are taken care of.

Angels to watch over you.

Julia said...

H, I'm so, so sorry.

DimeADanceQueen said...

i'm so so sorry, you have my deepest sympathies.

Katherine said...

I'm so sorry, Heather.

I hope the birthday party goes well today, and that the new medical news may be helpful in the future.

michaela said...

For crying out loud. This really and truly sucks... Wish I could think of better, more eloquent ways to touch the pain you must be feeling.

(o)